WHY WHY WHY did i go back to BORDERS?! Oh yeah cause im broke.
We had a kid (more like 14 year old) come in today with his parents asking for a cup of milk. Thats ok my supervisor and I were like ok we will sell you a cup of milk. So the douche that he is was like "No, can i just have a cup....and you know....use the milk on the counter?" (talking about the goddamn condiment bar where the sugar is and creamer is)
After wtf looks between my supervisor and I the supervisor was like "whatever" and gave the retard a cup.
that was the highlight of my retarded day.
yay.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
future thoughts.
not just tonight but in general it has been on my mind. grad school, take a year off (again), teach for america? its all blurring together and seems to keep me up now.
ive thought about grad school a lot. especially where it would be. i would be interested in places like Ole Miss (because of their Southern Institute) and possibly somewhere in AR. Most likely U of A which is farther and in NW AR rather than Conway. One girl I know is staying at UCA for grad work which is something I just cant do. I do like UCA but I wouldnt want a grad degree from there. U of A is at least something that is well known but the area is still foreign to me and the general school is as well. In Cali at least I have several options that I think I would like. CSU Chico, SF State, SJSU, UC Berkely (if there is a God) hell I would even consider Stanford (if I knew I had a chance) among several other colleges I think would fit.
taking a year off would be somewhat an idea. work.....somewhere. hopefully not borders but my reputation there would at least give me a guarenteed job. i would rather not because of the whole taking a year off thing. i dont really want to wait around for either passing the GRE or failing it a bunch of times.
teach for america is an option too. id like to be placed here in the bayarea, more specifically the east palo alto district. something that i think would be pretty good or at least something that would make me think i made a difference. i would like san jose as well. maybe sometime in the future when i am actually a teacher work for something like middle college. that was such a great experiece i think i would be able to work in that kind of enviroment.
ive thought about grad school a lot. especially where it would be. i would be interested in places like Ole Miss (because of their Southern Institute) and possibly somewhere in AR. Most likely U of A which is farther and in NW AR rather than Conway. One girl I know is staying at UCA for grad work which is something I just cant do. I do like UCA but I wouldnt want a grad degree from there. U of A is at least something that is well known but the area is still foreign to me and the general school is as well. In Cali at least I have several options that I think I would like. CSU Chico, SF State, SJSU, UC Berkely (if there is a God) hell I would even consider Stanford (if I knew I had a chance) among several other colleges I think would fit.
taking a year off would be somewhat an idea. work.....somewhere. hopefully not borders but my reputation there would at least give me a guarenteed job. i would rather not because of the whole taking a year off thing. i dont really want to wait around for either passing the GRE or failing it a bunch of times.
teach for america is an option too. id like to be placed here in the bayarea, more specifically the east palo alto district. something that i think would be pretty good or at least something that would make me think i made a difference. i would like san jose as well. maybe sometime in the future when i am actually a teacher work for something like middle college. that was such a great experiece i think i would be able to work in that kind of enviroment.
Friday, June 19, 2009
ranting
so last night i typed out this massive rant about everything going on. i wish i could post it here but alas i cannot since this is public.
eventually maybe i can talk about this.
eventually maybe i can talk about this.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
new layout!
as you can tell there has been a few changes. a new layout!!! now its all about HEROES haha. i couldnt think of any good pics but this was an awesome scene with sylar so i had to use it.
work is going well. right now it seems like i am only working 3 days next week so its either a blessing or a curse. hopefully at least something in the middle....i hope.
work is going well. right now it seems like i am only working 3 days next week so its either a blessing or a curse. hopefully at least something in the middle....i hope.
Monday, June 15, 2009
work and heroes!
so i started borders a week ago yesterday going back to my old job as a barista. it was ok at first but now its just dragging on me. i havent had a real like 9-5 job in forever so im constantly exhausted. the people there are cool least it isnt really a huge suckfest due to shitty coworkers.
summer school is prolly going to be put on hold. financially i dont think i can do this and have a summer job especially if i am so tired like i am. 8 hrs of spanish for two weeks? everday except the weekend? i dont know now. hopefully something will be changed.
my phone has been shut off as well since i havent had a job till this past week so i will have to use an old phone till then. hopefully next monday or so i can pay it off but till then i dont know. at least i have this old phone.
nothing really has gone on at work or personal life. ive been kinda tired as fuck so no hanging out of any kind with anyone.
i finally finished the 3rd season of Heroes. Im so addicted its retarded. I seriously cant wait till the next season!
summer school is prolly going to be put on hold. financially i dont think i can do this and have a summer job especially if i am so tired like i am. 8 hrs of spanish for two weeks? everday except the weekend? i dont know now. hopefully something will be changed.
my phone has been shut off as well since i havent had a job till this past week so i will have to use an old phone till then. hopefully next monday or so i can pay it off but till then i dont know. at least i have this old phone.
nothing really has gone on at work or personal life. ive been kinda tired as fuck so no hanging out of any kind with anyone.
i finally finished the 3rd season of Heroes. Im so addicted its retarded. I seriously cant wait till the next season!
Friday, June 5, 2009
incredibly long and filled with disjointed thoughts
yeah so the icon is irrelevant. this post will be somewhat depressing so at least i have something pretty to look at.
tonight we had Heather's memorial, something that was supposed to end but ended up finally ending at midnight. most of us shared memories of heather - the girl she was and who we remembered her as. while there were some people there that really didnt know each other i think it was something heather would have loved. many of us hadnt even spoken in years but it was nice to see everyone once again like it was old times.
in recent days it seems that there have been several suicides that have happened. why i do not know but there are some real problems that need to be addressed. three have been high school students and my friend heather. why several of the students have been doing these acts i dont know or even know how to comprehend what is going on. its not uncommon for overstressed students, especially in this area to kill themselves during the finals or even midterm weeks. but the rash of deaths are even more uncommon. most times there are maybe four a year. within the last month there have been four deaths due to suicides on the caltrain.
this area is known for the pressures that are put on students, we are expected to be in AP classes, bilingual if not trilingual and expected to do something like soccer or theater and still expected to go through life happy. many of these students are over stressed, though i do know that heathers problems were not high school problems.
what bothered me the most tonight was the fact that several people could have helped her. she cut all of us off especially ones who could have helped her. one thing we all talked about was her family. i only met two of her brothers but i always think about them and hope they are doing well, or at least well in some sense of the word. she was so close to her family and its sad to think that they lost such a nice sister.
much of this entry is so disjointed but i dont know how else to write it so sorry to those actually reading this.
i have so many good memories of heather and the what seems like complete change that happened while we were pushed back. its so uncharacteristically like her to end her life they way she did or even to end it at all. but i can also understand why she ended up pushing everyone away. honestly i dont ask for help either really, and i hate when i have to ask for help or let others know whats really going on in my head and yet i can see myself doing the exact same thing - pushing others away and finding my own way to go about my business which does scare me to think about.
i still find it weird going downtown, i cant deny its not weird to think i wont run into her now. i sat downtown with a few people where we always sat and i always think i am going to see her. working at borders again will be interesting for sure. its just another spot where ill be in the cafe and ill expect to turn around and see her standing there asking for the shitty coffee we serve or ranting about someone she saw being stupid. but its not going to happen that way. everything has changed and every time we see that boyfriend of hers rage will always end up being the primary emotion that will course through a lot of us. his fake tears of sadness wont fool anyone that knew heather and what he subjected her to. hopefully someone will teach him a lesson, this town for sure wont regardless of the criminal things he does under the nose of the police. several times we talked about how we saw people that looked like her. hell even in arkansas there were times after i heard about what happened there were glimpses or reminders of heather and it was unusual to think about.
but i remember the same after my mom died where id hear something that would spark up and id hear it or something would remind me. even now it happens so i doubt those little reminders of heather will ever really leave, which although we werent talking is something i am hoping to remember for a long time.
tonight we had Heather's memorial, something that was supposed to end but ended up finally ending at midnight. most of us shared memories of heather - the girl she was and who we remembered her as. while there were some people there that really didnt know each other i think it was something heather would have loved. many of us hadnt even spoken in years but it was nice to see everyone once again like it was old times.
in recent days it seems that there have been several suicides that have happened. why i do not know but there are some real problems that need to be addressed. three have been high school students and my friend heather. why several of the students have been doing these acts i dont know or even know how to comprehend what is going on. its not uncommon for overstressed students, especially in this area to kill themselves during the finals or even midterm weeks. but the rash of deaths are even more uncommon. most times there are maybe four a year. within the last month there have been four deaths due to suicides on the caltrain.
this area is known for the pressures that are put on students, we are expected to be in AP classes, bilingual if not trilingual and expected to do something like soccer or theater and still expected to go through life happy. many of these students are over stressed, though i do know that heathers problems were not high school problems.
what bothered me the most tonight was the fact that several people could have helped her. she cut all of us off especially ones who could have helped her. one thing we all talked about was her family. i only met two of her brothers but i always think about them and hope they are doing well, or at least well in some sense of the word. she was so close to her family and its sad to think that they lost such a nice sister.
much of this entry is so disjointed but i dont know how else to write it so sorry to those actually reading this.
i have so many good memories of heather and the what seems like complete change that happened while we were pushed back. its so uncharacteristically like her to end her life they way she did or even to end it at all. but i can also understand why she ended up pushing everyone away. honestly i dont ask for help either really, and i hate when i have to ask for help or let others know whats really going on in my head and yet i can see myself doing the exact same thing - pushing others away and finding my own way to go about my business which does scare me to think about.
i still find it weird going downtown, i cant deny its not weird to think i wont run into her now. i sat downtown with a few people where we always sat and i always think i am going to see her. working at borders again will be interesting for sure. its just another spot where ill be in the cafe and ill expect to turn around and see her standing there asking for the shitty coffee we serve or ranting about someone she saw being stupid. but its not going to happen that way. everything has changed and every time we see that boyfriend of hers rage will always end up being the primary emotion that will course through a lot of us. his fake tears of sadness wont fool anyone that knew heather and what he subjected her to. hopefully someone will teach him a lesson, this town for sure wont regardless of the criminal things he does under the nose of the police. several times we talked about how we saw people that looked like her. hell even in arkansas there were times after i heard about what happened there were glimpses or reminders of heather and it was unusual to think about.
but i remember the same after my mom died where id hear something that would spark up and id hear it or something would remind me. even now it happens so i doubt those little reminders of heather will ever really leave, which although we werent talking is something i am hoping to remember for a long time.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
layouts. ha!
so much for a new one. nothing seemed appealing.
got my job back at Borders which will be interesting for sure. I hope it will work out.
basically since i have been back all i have really done is sleep and play the sims 2.
how i have missed you sims 2.
now i need to buy a charger for my dam PC, hopefully i can bring it will be back to UCA!
got my job back at Borders which will be interesting for sure. I hope it will work out.
basically since i have been back all i have really done is sleep and play the sims 2.
how i have missed you sims 2.
now i need to buy a charger for my dam PC, hopefully i can bring it will be back to UCA!
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